It was awesome. I loved it. I could just post stuff whenever I wanted to, and it served as an emotional catharsis, a spiritual brain-sorting, and a writerly exercise all in one.
I want to restart. Not because I don’t have enough stuff that needs done, but because I am – according to HF – trying to fill an emptiness with empty things. I find that the more I do socially, especially in the capacity of volunteering my time, the more drained I feel.
And that makes perfect sense, the more you drive the car, the more gas it needs, right? But when the kids go to bed (OMG Khalid is 12 now!) and the dishwasher is loaded and running, I feel like I only have enough brain power to play (minecraft) or watch (cartoons) but not enough to think or create or produce anything of value.
I am allowed to challenge my own assumptions though. I have given myself permission. 😉
I am going to try to write instead of game or watch stuff at the end of a long day. Because you can’t fill emptiness with more empty. And consuming digital entertainment is spiritually, intellectually, and emotionally empty, even if it is lots of fun.
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